I really need to just remember to eat if I'm going to keep up with any form of exercise.

High doses of anti-epileptic medication + increasing metabolism = overdosing/side effects.

Side effects generally involve me not being able to see properly (which idiot thought it was a good idea to have the eyes directly connected to the brain?) and generally feeling very hazy and scatter-brained. In short, I'm doped up and normally the only way to effectively get rid of it is to sleep it off (someone did explain to me why that is the case, but I have since forgotten) but going into what is pretty much a drug-induced hibernation does no good for my sleeping patterns. Which, in turn, makes my situation worse.

It really doesn't help that while I'm like this, though I can have a perfectly coherent and probably intelligent conversation with people online, I am absolutely useless offline because there are too many things to be distracted by. I'll go into the kitchen to get food (a sandwich, an apple, anything) and come out with a cup of coffee. And caffeine lowers the seizure threshold, so... well done, genius. I'd be having an easier time if I was on morphine. It would be easier if I was permanently scatter-brained/compus mentis rather then a messed up combination of both. I can't follow spoken conversation because I actually stop listening and then get confused when I try to pick it up again. I can't necessarily finish sentences because I get distracted by a random (and equally ridiculous) trail of thought that actually doesn't make sense when I try to voice it. Not because I can't articulate it, but because it was just absurd.

And because I can't see I seem to become almost entirely dependent on my hearing and everything sounds like someone just turned the volume up to eleven.

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Purely so I can make arrangements for hostile global takeover without the world and its cousin finding out.


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